I’m a little behind because we were out of town for 4 days this past weekend…but I’m back and getting busy again!

Meeting topic tonight was Step 12:  Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to compulsive overeaters and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Even though it’s the 12th step and I’m on the 4th, I’m trying to do this even now.  I’m trying to apply my OA program to my life in general.  One aspect is all about setting boundaries.  I’ve been doing that a lot lately - for myself as well as for others - as I delve deeper into the program and as I begin to believe more in myself…

I have 2 kids, a full time job, a home, a husband, etc.  Sometimes I just can’t find or don’t find the time to spend on my program.  I always feel bad and probably feel a bit of resentment at all of my responsibilities.  I struggle to do things for ME.  Doing these 90 meetings in 90 days is really helping me to focus on my program.  It’s also allowing me to not feel guilty about giving myself time working my program.  My daughter looked at me tonight like I was crazy when I told her I was doing a meeting and that I would talk with her in an hour.  I deserve this time.  I am worth a mere hour a day.  All of the responsibilities will be there when the hour is over.  My daughter will still have a question and the dishes will still need to be done.  I just have to remember that I love myself enough to give myself this time.

Thank you God for showing me that I
am worth more than I’ve ever believed.